In my head

• My house.... Dirty. Messy. Disorganized. We've been here for almost 9 months (wow... that long already?) and the "lived in" clutter is starting to show. Its time to go through cabinets and drawers and closets and organized and declutter. Being gone the past 2 weekends hasn't helped.... I feel like we're living in disarray right now.
  
  
• Yesterday I bought Porter his first real pair of nice tennis shoes. When he was one I had bought him a cheap $5 pair from Payless. For his 2nd Christmas he got a cheap pair from Target. They both had that stiff as boards sole. I found a great deal on these Saucony running shoes for him at the outlets yesterday. They're so flexible and look so comfy. My next pair of tennies.... they'll be Saucony. I typically have always bought New Balance as they fit my feet nicely. However, I'm now really wanting these for myself.
  
  
• The main reason for wanting/needing tennis shoes for Porter (as he really doesn't wear them often.... winter he wears a halfway "trendy" Vans knock off and summer he sports flip flops 99% of the time) is that we're signing him up for a 3 and 4 year old soccer team in May. I think it'll be hilarious.... they have one practice a week and one game a week. Can't imagine what a game will look like with a bunch of preschoolers, but I am guessing it'll be hilarious.
  
  
• Monday Porter starts swimming lessons. He's old enough to do the non-parent involved lessons- the nitty gritty... not just playing in the water type of lessons, so I thought it would be good to get him into that. He's starting out in the Pike class, and Lukas will be in there with him.
  
  
• Why does the gums under my tooth hurt?

• Need to get back into a routine with these things: running, church, photography, scrapbooking, oh and paying bills.
  

• I got a new prescrip from the doc for my anxiety/crazy-mom pills... switching from Paxil to Zoloft. I had my annual girly appointment today and talked with the midwife about them. I told her I've tried going off them as I often feel ashamed that I have to rely on a pill to be happy- to be a good mom. But, I've found that I can't. Not only do I notice when I haven't had my meds, but co-workers and my husband do as well. Her comment "There's nothing wrong with it... there's only so much time and so much room on your plate..." made me feel better.
  

• I have lots of ideas floating in my head on the photography front. Changes in price b/c of the economy.... changes in how you buy prints (aka... I'm going to try out cd's!).... new logo... new packages etc.... but... while those things are all great ideas, I just need the time and focus to sit down and get them going.
  
  
• I'm pretty sure I won't have my job at the school next year. The rumor has become pretty blatant that with all the budget cuts they'll be eliminating my position. I am hoping to get in full time in another district (that I'm supposedly on the "to be hired" list... had an interview, they were impressed, they want me but are waiting for a position that I'm qualified for)... but if that doesn't pan out, I will have to do something. I guess I should get things in order with my business in case I need to do some ass busting to actually pay bills with that income rather than use it as fun/emergency money.
  
  
• I found a photographer I just looove and am really inspired to convert our apartment into a studio. Her newborn pics are amazing and I would love to have clients come to me sometimes rather than me always going to them. Especially those clients who have minimal natural light. So.... some new changes might be coming this summer in that aspect. Maybe. I still hate to put money into the apartment (new flooring- wood!, painting walls etc...) when I know sometime in the next 5 years or so we want to demo the entire apartment to make it our master bedroom suite.
  

• I want some new photography equipment... this and this specifically.

So many things... so little time.