Filling Time

Thank you for all the kind words, comments, offers and support. We've received an abundance of support from family, friends, strangers and the like. I am amazed at how many people come out of the woodwork and are there for you in a time of need.

I haven't had time, or moreso- energy- to respond to all these comments and emails. Thank you, each and every one of you.

I think everyone is doing as well as can be expected- considering. I've been keeping busy with meaningless tasks.... I work today and tomorrow (which makes me feel a bit cold and heartless... however, I don't get any paid time off and we have bills to pay. And, I feel better just keeping routine and not dwelling on the situation). I have been trying to keep up with client requests and getting ready for the upcoming holiday season (cards, sessions etc). Keeping the idle minutes filled is easier than sitting and dwelling and thinking and feeling.

Ryan is holding up- I'm in pain for him, but he's strong and he's trying to be there for his dad. Everyone else, well, I can't really speak for them. I know this week is going to be filled with organizing things for the funeral on Saturday and other things... its the weeks and months following that I know are going to prove to be challenging. Its the moments where we should all be together that are going to be the worst.

We've lost a key component to our family. Its going to take time to rearrange and restructure.

Anyhow... I told myself I'd get to bed early tonight. I was exhausted at work. Not sure if its from lack of sleep or just from being emotionally drained. One more day of work.